Moments of life~

Mike went to the mountains with some friends to ride the trails on his 4-wheeler. He needed some time away. There's just something about relaxing in the woods that restores your heart, mind, & soul.

Mike loves John Deere tractors. He has a friend that restores old John Deere tractors. His friend puts a few of his tractors in parades & always asks Mike to drive one. Of course Mike says yes just to drive one. He grew up on a dairy & farmed with John Deere tractors. So these moments are sweet for him. 

Jayven is a busy boy always on the move pretending he's some character or going places. While Mike was loading up his pickup to go camping Jayven was pretending he was driving to the mountains with sound affects. He was making me laugh. He's defiantly captured grandmas heart.  

             My sweet little "HERO"

The change was pileing up on the dryer & my granddaughter Aura thinks she needs it. I love that she asked for it & didn't just take it. She's such a creative young lady. 

I love watching sunsets & sunrises I find them peaceful. I can't see sunrises very well living in town. God is so good to us giving us so many things to see with such detail, & so colorful! There's beauty in all his creation. 

I started this blog awhile ago & got interrupted by a cute curly hair sweet little boy... Sometimes I get irritated with interruptions, but then I remind myself they won't be little forever & that their little needs in their world are important to them. And I want them to feel respect from me & that they feel they are important! 

Life feeling Overwhelming~

In the last five yrs. my depression has gotten worse. I've let so many things I used to do go. I was an organized person. I kept up with the lawn mowing, & weeding flowerbeds & other tasks. I planted flowers & a few tomato plants. Now I can't keep up with yard work, house work, grocery shopping, or laundry & much more. I have so many paper piles to be shredded & filing cabinet full of old statements...ugh! In the last five & a half yrs. I've had my grandchildren living with us off & on or I'm babysitting them. I feel like I'm raising a family all over again. I question myself on how I was able to stay organized & kept up with my duties when I was a young mom. I also worked then to & sometimes two jobs. Maybe it's because I'm in my mid fifties now & I'm tired. My body hurts all the time. I have hip & back pain no matter what I do or don't do. It's really frustrating I can't do the things I used to do. I feel like I can't ever go anywhere due to all the things I need to do, but even if I stay home (which I choose to do a lot) I don't get anything done. 

Now I've got to deal with my aging parents. They need to move to a safer place. Some place like assistant living. They don't want to move. For fifty five yrs. they've lived very isolated lives, so this kinda move will be hard for them. They live in California. Their health is bad. They both fall a lot. My mom has to walk with two canes & should be using a walker. They are 78 & 79.

Because I'm always feeling overwhelmed. I go for drives & ho watch sunsets. I think about the "what life used to be like!" It's hard to see the changes of life. Some are good & some I don't like! I feel like I'm not aging with grace...lol! 

I'm thankful I have my Heavenly Father who carries me in the times when I feel like I can't go on in life. It is his Hope, & his Love that keeps me pressing on in this journey one day at a time...

School days & Summer days~

Friday June 5th was the last day of school & it makes me sad when school is over... It means the grandkids are going into the next grade. Jayven starts kindergarten this fall. Wow...where did the last 5 & 1/2 yrs. go? I thought time went fast when my daughters were growing up. The older I get time seems to fly faster then lighting...lol! 

I love my job as a school bus driver. Kids make me laugh & I love seeing their energy for life! There are days as a substitute driver it's not so fun, but those days don't happen very often. Theres going to be some changes next school yr. My boss announced he is retiring before school starts. I was sad to hear this, yet happy for him. He's been in school transportation for 41 yrs. He's been one of my favorite bosses. There will also be changes with the office staff. There will be 4 new positions. 

I'm praying Jen will be off of graveyard shifts by then. Then I can take a regular route. There will be about 6 routes open. 

In the mean time I will enjoy summer the best I can. I still have them nasty Yellowjackets! It's not fun to be outside with them darn things swarming around you. Since they made an underground nest a few yrs. ago they have been really bad every yr. since. 

My parents are not in good health & I'm  making a trip to Cali to talk them into moving to a safer place. They both fall a lot. It's a hard thing to deal with. 

Farmers Market & Yard Sales

Market Market~

Jayven & I made plans a few days ago to go to Farmers Market this morning. Jayven calls it "Market Market"...lol! Not real sure why this kid loves going to Market Market; he just does! He asked if he could spend the night so we could go as soon as we woke up he said. He got his favorite popcorn at Market Market & a few books from the yard sale. I got a cheese grater & a little sign all for .35 cents. I've been looking for a small wooden desk for my granddaughter Aura's room for about 6 mos. or more & I'm not having any luck finding one. Now that school is out we are going to paint her room & make new curtains. Hopefully find that desk soon... 

A Tea Party!

Shaylei & Aura were bored so they decided to have a Tea Party in the backyard. They made tea sandwhices with Nutella & cut the sandwhices into little squares. They also poured little French Toast Cereal in little bowls. They served Milk in place of tea. They used their imagination decorating the table. It was cute to watch them put things together. They enjoyed the sandwhices & the little French toast with their milk along with chit-chatting with each other. 

I love these girls. I'm Thankful for these moments especially when life gets hard at times. 

Mickey Mouse Pancakes...

According to this boy "this grandma" makes the best Mickey Mouse Pancakes in the whole wide world...lol! Of course he would say that cuz I'm "his grandma" & he doesn't know how all the other grandmas in the whole wide world make Mickey Mouse Pancakes for their grandchildren. He makes me laugh a lot with all his little sayings. It's hard sometimes to listen to him talk when those big blue eyes are looking at you when he thinks what he's got to say is important! He's a very busy boy & keeps me on my toes... He just finished preschool & is now a kindergartner....whoa! That also means I have two 8th graders & a 4th grader. The older I get the "FASTER" time flies by....yikes!

Rainbows~

Tonight coming home from TriCities I saw a full Rainbow. I'm pretty sure I haven't seen a full rainbow since I was a little girl. I could tell it had just rained & it smelled so good. I look to the East & see part of a rainbow & I tried to take a picture of it on my phone, but I couldn't get a good picture of it. Then I saw another rainbow next to it only it was faint. I kept watching these rainbows for awhile. The faint one disappeared & then it came back & then the brighter rainbow became a full rainbow & it looked like it stretched a long ways. It was gorgeous! I could see that rainbow from King City (just outside of Pasco) all the way to the Hwy 17 cut off. It made me think about how God created that & the beauty of all that's on Earth. I was also wondering if it was touching the ground on both ends. I was thinking like a little kid...lol! I love it when God opens my eyes like that...