....a little update!

Well I'm down 6.4 lbs. I did very well the first two weeks. I haven't done very well this last week. I've found that night time is my hardest time. I wanna eat the things that aren't good for me. I have to remind myself to stay in the moment and this is done one step at a time! I'm determined to over come this change through my new journey. 

I made it to the gym most of the days I set to go. My trainer wasn't available last week. 

I'm finding the more I go the more I want to go... 

I sure wish spring would really get here. I'm so ready for warmth of sunny days, flowers, bbq's, and watching the kids play in the pool in the backyard.

We are celebrating Easter this weekend because family members have other family to be with on Easter. I'm going to try the coloring eggs with koolaide. I'm hoping for nice weather for Sat. I miss the Tri City kids a lot these days. They don't come up like they used to... I guess I wasn't really prepared for the day they wouldn't be at grandmas house all the time for various reasons. 

Changes, Goals, & more

I am so excited to say I'm on a new journey in my life... I joined weight watchers last Tues. and I'm liking it. I feel like my calorie count has a fence around it now and I have a direction with it! And I joined a gym on Wed. with a trainer. At first I wanted to keep all this a secret. Beacause if I tell people I will fail, But I've decided if I tell it will keep me more accountable to myself. I want this to work really bad. With God's guidence I can make it work. I also know this HAS to be a LIFESTYLE CHANGE for the rest of my life. My weight has limited me to doing things. I'm sick of feeling uncomfortabel eveywhere I go in public or within myself for that matter. I HATE that I let myself get here. I've had a weight problem since about 13 yrs old. & thats also when I got into the use of drugs and alcohol for 24 yrs. of my life. I went into treatment to get the help I needed to be free of that. I had a light bulb moment (as Oprah would say...) I've beat myself up about my weight and myself imagine for so long that I've come to believe it all. My light bulb moment was that I didn't get almost 18 yrs. of Sobriety and Clean time all at once. I did it in small steps one day at a time. I had to make changes in my life to make it through each day to stay clean & sober. At times the choice was not easy! I know sometimes those choices aren't easy because I take control. I'm Thankful God has Mercy on me and gives me Grace to walk with him.

 Till next update... Blessings to all of you!